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08 February 2010
Even that little bit of faith counts. Do you still have (or even had) that little bit of trust in me right from the beginning? At least I am still aware that you are my boyfriend, and I won't phone other guys for leisure. If I called, it is surely not for fun. I know you're gonna start it, again. Lamenting why I only write the bad things about you here and leave out the good ones. I am not trying to pick a quarrel here, but if you're not happy with me, too bad. I don't even know why I am stuck in this thing. The same old feeling comes back again. It is like I am pissed to the max I want to cry it out, but I can't. It is like there is this pent up feeling building within me. Either step that I take is wrong. And I feel that I can explode at any moment. It is too bad you have inferior complexity. I can't help you with that. I didn't say poly wasn't good. I didn't say poly cannot be compared to jc. So if you think you are inferior then I am sorry, that's too bad. For now I am going to wait till it wears off. 05 February 2010        I went back to Queenstown just now with Poppins. School ended early like 1030Am so we went to eat and yeah do the usual retarded shit. Nothing much la, we're going back soon. The tentative plan is this Friday. Anyway Putri and I were like so obsessed with the Nanyang cheers we learnt during Orientation. We kept saying it over and over. yknow disco night was so cool and memorable. I cant believe I got so high okay thats all bye bye~ Some people are just so hypocritical, two face creature. You stupid dog. Go and die, I wont talk to you anymore. Maybe I would, but from today onwards, I will look at you with such disdain. You idiot, goodbye loser. 02 February 2010 Haha, tonight was a good good night. Tonight was the last day of orientation. We had this Disco Night thing and it was fun. We were like mad kids, running jumping and dancing like mad. Everything was like damn mad, mad. Hm, I think I should change it to Tonight was mad mad night. Tomorrow school starts official. Yay. And I am so gonna enjoy it. Yay. K bye. *I will post them if I ever get the orientation pictures. Love it bye. 01 February 2010 A mental breakdown today. One minute I was having fun doing the mass dance, or rather embarassing myself on stage, the other minute I just broke down. I didn't exactly break down just yet, till I saw familiar faces that I could cry out loud in their arms and not worrying much about my image. Friends= power. It was a crazy day for me. 26 January 2010 Mother has been nagging. She doesn't have faith in me. She thinks that I will not get into Nanyang. But her daughter still harbours that little faith in herself. I still believe that when the posting results are not out yet, there is still hope. No? No news is good news, at the very least. Actually I can picture myself going to Nanyang this Thursday. But on second thought, what if I end up in other jcs instead? I will be a joke. The hopes that I had would be like a glass that has been shattered to million pieces. Damn. Shouldn't be having that thought. Faith. Shall update more later. love my baby who hasnt call me yet!!
One thing for sure, life is going to get tough when I get into JC. Another thing, I am bent on going to Nanyang Jc. Last thing, posting tomorrow. Good luck. Pray hard and let's cross fingers together. Unless you are very sure you will enter the school that you put as first choice and left ITE courses for the rest of the eleven choices. Anyway the above image is rather random. It shows how determined I want to go to Nanyang. Heh. This leads to another thought. I haven't bought school shoes yet. I think I am going to get it tomorrow. Good night. After what I have heard and thought, some friends are just too much. We have been friends for two years, maybe close friends, and is that all we/they deserve? Heard you have been crying as well. Crying because you have lost them, but can those crying pull them back to you? No, and I guess you have lost me as well. |
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